Single..love it or hate it

Being single. I have been single about 99.65% of my life (accurate to the nearest .01). I have had many chances at love and missed them, i've tried love a few times and didn't have a chance. For a moments in my life I let it actually attacked my self esteem. I even experienced jealousy, the one emotion i can stand the least. That was until i did have my real first shot at a beautiful relationship. To make a hardback novel short, she was in my class senior year; we seemed to build a bit of chemistry but i was feeling someone else. After I swung and missed, I went back to the girl that was feeling me, only to hesitate, ever so slightly, but a few too many times. and you know he who hesitates.....It was actually the only time my heart was actually broken. There have been other chances, some even leading to me to doing things i DON'T stand for and nill NOT do again. but none with such impact as the first, for reasons that out weigh my stamina to type tonight. So since that point, there has been an empty spot in my heart that, for a while, nearly depressed me (that's saying something trust me). That empty spot, can only be filled my one thing, romance.
There are some that see being single as a breath of fresh air. As if a relationship was a full time job . they get the freedom to focus on the things that are also important in their life, like a career, or school. To a degree, i must agree. In an effective relationship, work must be put in both ways. The more intense the relationship, the more you have to tailor your life to your significant other. Some things you may have had planned in your life may get a little caught in the wash, or may have to take a outright backseat. But in these cases, is that a reason to give up love? Don't you think you've found somebody that instead of holding you back, will pick you up and give you a boost? just sayin, man, if u got a keeper, keep her. Also, there are relationships in which it just isnt gonna work. I was in such a situation myself, honestly. The Lord blessed us both with the sense to know we weren't meant for each other, and we mutually and peacefully parted ways. Not all situations are so easy, and none at all are perfect, but no relationship is worth intense pain and suffering to where you feel less of a human being. see the writing on the wall if it's there. Some others who like the single life, however, simply like the fact they are available to others of the opposite sex. No more having to steal a glance at the pretty girl in the tight skirt walkin across the street for you buddy, you can go chase now!.......... that mentality is immature. But i'm not here to Player hate, to each his own.
Since coming up with the idea to write this, I've actually battled with where i really stand on this subject. at first, i told my self (and someone else) i hated being single, i was lonely and if i just have someone I could turn to for company, i'd be satisfied. having heard other perspectives, and actually doing a little soul searching this is more how i feel. No I do not particularly like being single, i do get lonely and could go for a female i could consistently turn to just to kick it with. However, for now being single is for the best, i need to make sure lust and desperation are not reasons im in my next realtionship. So no being single isnt necessarily where i want to be, but it is where i have to be, so that i also know myself and what i really can offer in a relationship.
So i say to my happy bachelors and bachelorettes, if you are single and like it, fine. But do so for the sake of finding yourself in the progress. Don't give up love, for it is a gift from God. To the single people wishing they had someone, there is one out there for you, know it or not. but remeber, a relationship is almost a job. even before marriage, you have to live a little bit for the person you are dating. Also take this time to search yourself, what do you really want in a realtionship? are you the person you want to be yet? many people rush into relationships not knowing the answer to these questions and wonder why they break up. Can I answer these questions? you ask....yes the answers are both no for now.

To my couples out there, I'm happy for you. may they last in happiness forever. emphasis on hapiness.

Lesson for today,
before you get what you want, you gotta know what you want, and you gotta be real with yourself