Hungry? why wait?

Man I miss y'all! and i left for so long I forgot to feed y'all! but it's kool i got a ton of suff for ya and i decided since i got the day off i'ma hit ya wit most of it now.
Well let's see....takin off from where i left off Atlanta was a blast! Got to see my boy 240 be the legend he'll be in the future, got to see my lil midget (she is just a friend, seriously) on her birthday (as i have every year for a few years now) and i got to really enjoy the atmosphere of the I definetely wouldn't mind living there. Of course, I also learned a lesson, the airport in the atlanta is no place to rely on your will power. Basically, i thought i'd just man up and wake up at the crack of dawn and get to the airport in time. Yea so guess how that ended up? yep. $50 rebooking fee. i did get home in time tho lol.
Since i've been back from Atlanta it's been quite the struggle. Everything to my car to the power to the rent. well besides that, I've also added something to my weekly activities. I now have become a plasma donor. good for the babies and i get a lil $ on the side. plus it's funny hangin out w/ the old guys that are there. think i got stories, man they are hilarious! This struggle has moved me to pray a little bit more. Not sure what the Lord has in store for me, but i do think this stretch in the summer is a test of faith. Not just in my believing in him, but also my faith to depend on him. It isn't enough to simply attibute everthing good in life to him. I'm learning I have to ask as well, because though he loves us, he can't be taken for granted. You have to want him in your life and that's what prayer shows is that you recognize him as something you want and need in your life. Honestly, i still don't pray enough, but i have started to pray a little bit more. Speaking of which i heard a clip of something the other day, and I wasn't sure if it was true of if there was more to it i didn't hear. basically the preacher said when you start out saying you aren't worthy, you've already lost. It makes sense to a degree, why pray for something you shouldn't get? And maybe it's too much humility but my question for that is how worthy are we? A question i hope i find the answer to...
NY was fun, but wayyy to short. better i didn't stay tho, i'd be so much worse off, lol. Sad I didn't see my sister. I actually didn't do a whole lot there this time, but it was just fun to catch up with friends and what not.
Okay so why are all the beautiful seemingly unbreakable relationships demolished now? GOSH ppl! c'mon now many ppl would give up so much to be in a relationship and you want to just screw it up. smh....so yea i've talked on this subject before but guess i gotta throw another lesson in. First of all, if you are in a relationship and you dont like it, i'm definetely not telling you force yourself to be in it, but think things through. Many ppl i know rush into relationships and they do not last, worse they end on horrible terms. patience, my child. Yes you may break a million relationships before you find the right one, but you could also avoid a lot of heartbreak if you gave it time before throwing those three words around like a football. Being single may not be romantically fufilling, but it gives one time to really reflect on things and prepare for a relationship. Another point, if you want something in a relationship, and you ask for it for months and still don't get it, cheating STILL isn't the answer. Cheating get's you three things, a get out of relationship NOW card, someone pissed at you, and one of many possible labels, ho, slut, floozy among the mix. Almost never (and i mean scientifically small decimals here) does it get your significant other to change in the way you want it to. And also don't think you'll get away with it, because cheating is for the most part always discovered.
So there, i even chopped it up for the babies like a parent would. don't worry i won't leave you that long like that for a while